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If only I had told her by Laura Nowlin
Book Blurb:
If only Iβd told her that I loved her years ago, then I wouldnβt be here now.
Finn has always loved Autumn. Sheβs not just the girl next door or his motherβs best friendβs daughter, she is his everything. But sheβs not his girlfriend. Thatβs Sylvie, and Finn would never hurt her, so thereβs no way Autumn could know how he truly feels.
Jack, Finnβs best friend, isnβt so sure. Heβs seen Finn and Autumn together. How could she not know? And how is he supposed to support and protect Finn when heartache seems inevitable?
Autumn surrounds herself with books and wants to write her own destinyβbut one doesnβt always get a new chapter and fate can be cruel to those in love.
Told through three different perspectives, If Only I Had Told Her is a love story brimming with truth, tragedy, and unexpected bonds that heal us.
My Thoughts:
I was not prepared.
I was not prepared for the amount of sorrow I would feel for Autumn and their family and friends. For the life they should’ve had and the plans that inevitably are frozen in time.
I was not prepared for the amount of times I put myself in her shoes and imagined that kind of loss. For going from declaring undying love and passion to an abyss. I always felt that that’s the hardest thing about death – the final jarring note it strikes.
They often say we are stronger than we think and I have to believe as women God gave us a little extra strength because, he knew life would definitely try and break us. So he made our bones bend-able, pliable. He gave us more leg room in the heart division for all the days of our lives where we will need an extra shield. Autumn is wearing her shield. Except now she is not just protecting herself…
I found myself back in Missouri, USA. Standing beside Autumn as she finds a version of herself who knows how to live in this new world where everything is alien. This world where she eats old powder candy and sits in circles talking amongst 12 strangers about the biggest losses of their lives. This world where she makes ultrasound decisions and decides if the future has a crib or a shared bed. A world in which the future that’s unfolding she never saw coming. They never saw it coming. Even as Autumn painfully puts one foot in front of the other sometimes in a haze, she heals, because sometimes just getting up is winning.
It breaks my heart for what they didn’t get to do but begs the question again… would you rather cboose a lifetime of never knowing or a moment of extraordinary love?
I know what I choose and even though that choice can be painful if the worst happens. I would choose that everyday. Autumn did too. You my friend, ifΒ you don’t know, go get the book then ask yourself the question. I was not prepared for how much time and thoughts and feelings I would have for this book.
I rated it ββββ on Goodreads.
Well done Laura. You made me cry, made me think, made me appreciate. Thank you.t
This was gifted to me by Penquin Random House. Thank you so much.
And you,Β tellΒ them. I hope you never live the regret ofΒ ‘ifΒ only…’
I think I will just sit here in gratitude.
Ciao ,
Love Cece xx -
if he had been with me by Laura Nowlin
Book Blurb :
If he had been with me everything would have been different…
I wasn’t with Finn on that August night. But I should’ve been. It was raining, of course. And he and Sylvie were arguing as he drove down the slick road. No one ever says what they were arguing about. Other people think it’s not important. They do not know there is another story. The story that lurks between the facts. What they do not knowβthe cause of the argumentβis crucial.
So let me tell you…
My Thoughts :
I was determined to not cry for anything in this book and then I started reading it while my mensies came for a monthly visit. Ha! Jokes on me. Laura why did you do that?
Why did we have to seperate like that? I’m about to start If Only I Had Told Her. I think I may be a sucker for punishment.
I found myself in High school battling homework , the high school hierarchy, and young love. Between English lit and staking a claim on a cafeteria table I met my new friends Autumn and Finn. Autumn and Finn have been in each other’s lives forever. I don’t think either can remember a time when the other was not around. It started as a sibling relationship, grew into that comfy I-will-kick-any-guys-ass-on-the-playground-that-teases-you-best-friend-place and later something blossomed I don’t think either of them saw coming but, seemed to me and The Mothers like such a natural progression of their relationship. The issue comes when you do realize it but both of you are dating other people and your social status’s in school put you in different places and pulled you apart. In as much as they are not conjoined twins anymore, when Autumn sees him walking down a hallway or steals a glance from across the table his still Finn. The goofy boy who for endless hours would just watch her read while he played football and who she never really imagined living without but now does.
They sayΒ whenΒ somethingΒ isΒ meant for you nothing can hold it back from being yours.Β IΒ don’t know about that jury’s still out but, for these two a rebirth of their friendship meant a reconnection of that old bond that never quite broke. It was a little bent and batted but still very much solid. Spending the summer with Autumn while she nursed her feels about Jamie who seriously was getting on my nerves.Β IΒ mean who calls someone pretty girl all the damn time. The woman has a name for one and other great qualities too.Β IfΒ you wanted to appease her so badly next time try and compliment her brain π¦ anywayΒ IΒ digress.
A couple of breakfast runs and late nights later and they knew this is it. This is what Bach meant in Suite No 3 II. Air. What every composer in history fills their music sheets with. What Michelangelo saw before he started painting the ceiling of the Sistine Chapel in the Vatican, my gosh! What Jane Austin poured her soul into. Autumn and Finn found IT. Or rather they were blessed with IT and now they had to cherish IT.
In the wild winds of passion and love, life happens. So I ask you – Is it better to never find that extraordinary love and die not knowing how incredible that feels and the possibilities it holds? Or having it for even just one moment and departing this life knowing you knew love, you felt love, you were loved?
I’m leaning towards the latter.
I’m a little heartbroken and a little devasted but also so happy I read it.
I rated this βββ on Goodreads. I would recommend it if my thoughts resonates with you, go pick it up.
I think I will sit here and ponder on the meaning of love in 2024
Ciao,
Love Cece xx
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